What do I plan to do with my wild and precious life? "Human beings are works in progress that mistakenly think they're finished" - Dan Gilbert said this during his Ted Talk "The Psychology Of Your Future Self" about a year ago. Roughly a year ago I would have disagreed with this, I found myself constantly battling those older than me, be it work colleagues, friends and even my boyfriend at the time, on a myriad of related topics concerning changes in adult hood, especially on how I didn't think I would change much after reaching my mid twenties. Oh my did I have a lot to say on the subject, if only I'd have known how much I was to change in just a year.
Now I can't say that the past year has been jam packed with life changing events, in comparison to previous years it has been down right boring. Which, may I add, has been thoroughly refreshing and calming. Maybe that has a lot to do with how I have changed over the past 12 months, I've had time to reflect, ponder, wonder and mull over the past few years. Forming opinions, taking stock and (I hope) improving myself. So before answering the question on what I plan to do with this incredible life I have been lucky enough to live, I think I'd better take a moment to be grateful for where I am right now.
If we're going to be literal about it, I'm hunched over my laptop, spotify radio playing lovely chilled music, the fire roaring, tea at my side having just devoured a homemade (healthy) chocolate pudding. I'm content and I'm happy even though I'm home alone (with 4 cats, obviously) recovering from having my wisdom teeth removed. I think this is one of the biggest changes to have happened in the past year, I am now content in my own company. They say that learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all, well Whitney Houston did and I think she was onto something there.
I'm grateful for my incredible family who support me in all that I do, I have an amazingly kind and caring family. My mum constantly thinks of others, she has the most selfless, beautiful soul. My dad would do anything for anyone, especially his three girls and my sister can only be described as the most perfect sister and best friend. I love them dearly and wouldn't change a single thing about them.
I'm grateful for my gorgeous cats, yes four is a lot, yes my friends constantly tease me for being their crazy cat lady friend but I would do anything for these furry balls of love.
I'm grateful for my flat overflowing with memories filled with laughter, joy, love, happiness and plenty of music.
I'm grateful for the handful of people I am so thankful to be able to call my very closest friends.
I'm grateful for my life, that I am lucky enough to be able to live it exactly as I wish, I am aware that I have the power to achieve all that I wish for.
So, let's go back to the question before I continue to ramble. What do I plan to do with my wild and precious life?
I hope that I am fortunate enough to have children, it is the one thing in life I am completely sure of, I know that I want to be a mum. If I can be half as good a mother as my own I know I'll do well. I will save up so that I can buy a 3 bedroom home, I will continue to work on my various projects. I will have a vegetable patch and chickens, I will continue to drink plenty of tea and most likely add a dog (a Labrador) to the family. I will spend hours experimenting with healthy, plant based recipes in my kitchen, I will continue to dance bare foot on the kitchen tiles.
I'll sing in the shower at the top of my lungs and I will wake at the crack of dawn to meditate and do yoga. I will never stop being this little 5ft3 ball of energy that enters rooms in a whirlwind of laughter, swooping up those I love along for the ride. I will travel to beautiful countries, discover new cultures, food, sunrises and sunsets.
I will be the friend that is always there for you, I'll be the 3am calls and the late night tea maker. I will always see the good in others, I'll be patient and kind, grateful and happy. I will do all of this with the person I'll spend the rest of my life with, I'm not quite sure who that is yet but he'll be kind and caring, he will make me laugh every single day and I, in return, will light up his life.
I will be ever changing, ever improving, ever moving, forever loving, forever giggling, forever positive.
I will be the very best version of...well, of me.